Standing at the corner of the year....

I paused a little while. Took a deep breath. And I turned around. I'm seeing many things and people that happened in my life this year. The final days of the year is not even here yet. Lurking. Ready to take on us all. I'm through this year. Done! Finish! Having much anticipations and fears for the coming year. With so much uncertainties in store.

There was sweet, bitter, with wishes being fulfilled and dreams turned into nightmares. One last look. One final wave. And when I turn forward, I will have no regrets, no tears and no fears of my past. Just picking up the debris and mend all that is broken. Appreciate all that bequest upon me, but not forgetting learning the lessons and promises that I've made.

A year older, a year lived. Taking all my experiences with a pinch of salt and touch base with reality. Accommodating lost and feeling my way through a masquerade. I am still learning to endure these two very distinctive affairs in my life right now. So far, I’ve been euphoric and indignant along the way. I will survive.

Anticipate all and expects nothing. I think that helps in sincerity of giving over and over again.

Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!

I live everyday, modestly; and ever gratified that I am alive. That I have so much to look forward to and have all the freedom to have it all. Life is really short. Know what you want and do your best to get it. I refuse to live wondering, but I can live knowing.

What a friend.....

Hey!! Come back!! I'm losing visitors here.... Maybe it's because I didn't update my blog very often lately. Sighs. Sorry guys. Been busy. Don't worry. I'll update my blog often in this coming new year. I'll put that in my resolutions list.

I was out the other day with my friends at the curve. 3 guys and a girl. Well, we were chatting and when the relationship topic comes out, this girl; C; told us that she is having a problem with her bf. -_-! And she told us her problem with her bf.... blah blah blah.... Then, one of my guy friend; A; started bombarding this girl's bf with all the bad words and stuffs like "He must be cheating on you!" "He is treating you like a freaking french maid" "He is just using you as a sex object" "He ain't worth it" "Lose him and find someone else" And some other things. You know I know.

I was like....... ermmm... speechless. Why the heck he would say such things if he doesn't even know this bf of her's personally? I just gave him a finger. That's all. And I drag my another guy friend; H; to the toilet. While walking to the toilet with him, I asked him, "Why the heck did A act like that?, Aren't he supposed to listen and comfort her? Why bombard the guy? He maybe not good but it's not up to us to judge". H said "A has a crush on C" AHHHHH!!!! Now I got it. Damn it.

Why does human have to act like this? Am I like the bf too? Being bombard by someone for not being there to listen to my gf? Or, am I like A? Which am I? Comes to think of it, I think I'm more like the first one. For not being there.

But is it necessary for someone else to curse you and talk bad about you infront of your gf? Good or bad, it's up to the gf to judge. Nobody is perfect. The bf could be better in something else that does attract the gf. And maybe that's what the gf wants in her life. It's just at times she hope the bf has the other better half. No point bad mouth the bf. If you want to win the girl's heart, do it the correct way. What way? Go figure out yourself! LOL. Damn A!

Hate you man!

Another year is almost become the past..... Another new year is coming....

It's been sometime I didn't update this blog. I know some of you out there is actually still comes in here and hoping that I update it. Sorry to disappoint you. It's kinda irritating when you logs in here and all you see is that song lyrics all over and over again. LOL. Before you start reading the next few lines of my pathetic blog, please wait till the song starts then continue. It's a wonder how someone could write and sing such a superb song.

Another new year is coming. Any plans of celebrating it? Any new year resolutions? Well, as for me, I have no new resolutions to vow. People do ask me, do I have any new resolutions? I just replied nope. To me, to make a new resolution, we don't need to wait till new year comes. We can make new resolutions as the time comes. Right? As long as we can keep up to the old ones, then only we can make a new one. No point making a new one when you can't even keep up to the old ones.

Summary of this year!! This year, I think it will be the most memorable one in my entire life. So many things, so many events, so many happiness, so many sadness, and so many people coming into my life. Anyone here interested of knowing them? Well, it's my blog, like it or not, I'm going to write it! Hahahaha! Let me try to recall everything now..... Hmmm....

January....... hmmm... nothing much..... went for a work trip to Canada..... was there for a week..... I was lucky enough to be the hotel's guest of the day and my room was upgraded to a Deluxe Suite which is a big surprise for me..... LOL..... Hmm.... What else? Able to feel how is it like to be walking 400m out in the street to a mall at the temperature of -17 degrees plus the strong wind from the north pole.... BBBBbrrrrrrrrrr...... Almost fainted halfway walking..... LOL Walking back to the hotel after shopping at the mall was so hard and I was so reluctant to do it...

Comes February..... Nothing much at the beginning of the month but drawing near CNY, I broke up with my gf (that time)..... Had an arguement..... So I went thru CNY being single this year.... Sighs..... But something happened on the following month.

March, got back together with her...... we told ourself that we will give another try to iron things out. We made a plan to stay together just by ourself and hope by doing this, we can have more privacy and spending quality time together more often at home.......

April arrives and we managed to get a place to rent in Damansara Perdana...... bought furnitures.... fridge..... tables.... chairs...... cabinets...... phewwwww!!! Can't imagine moving house is so difficult..... Sighs....

May...... Hmmm..... Her birthday......

June..... nothing much..... work and work and work.......

July....... Went to Shanghai for another work trip....... for 3 weeks this time....... and she went to Jakarta for work trip also.......

August..... things getting shaky.......

19th September 2007....... on my night of leaving to Turkey...... we broke up...... AGAIN! yeah.... screw it! Enjoyed myself in Turkey for 9 days! Doesn't even want to bother much...... came back and settle the stuff with her and off she go! Boleh Blah!....... Hahahahahaha......

October..... hmmmmm...... met a girl..... but it was just short and sweet.... but I just have no feelings for her..... Doesn't know why..... Just doesn't.... But I met another girl again..... I wasn't putting any hope on her at that moment we first met..... but after a few times we went out.... my heart keeps pumping faster when I wait for her to meet up...... and I got more anxious of seeing her everytime.... and I felt a scratch that actually created a spark!

November..... the month I was born 31 years ago...... had a small birthday party with her........ but it was perfect for me..... as long as I get to be with her...... even no party will be great for me too......

December...... a shitty month for me..... no comment.....

Looking forward for the new year to come.......

Just When I Needed You Most

This lovely song resembles what I'm going thru right now...... Got nothing more to say..... Sing together if you know this song..... Touchy..... Sad...... And beautiful song

Just When I Needed You Most - Dolly Parton

You packed in the morning
I stared out the window
And I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way
Now I miss you more
Than I missed you before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Yes, you left me
Just when I needed you most
Now most every morning
I stare out the window
I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me

cause I need you more
Than I needed before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
Yes, you left me
Just when I needed you most

You packed in the morning
I stared out the window
And I struggled for something to say
You left in the rain without closing the door
I didn't stand in your way

Now I love you more
Than I loved you before
And now where I'll find comfort, God knows
cause you left me
Just when I needed you most
You left me
Just when I needed you most
Oh, you left me
Just when I needed you most

PCK #2

Finally I finished my drawing... Hehehehe.... After dragging it more than 2 weeks.... Too much of Facebook I guess.... LOL... I wonder how our new office will looks like by following my drawing... Kekekeke....

Last Sunday, I went out to buy my bedsheet, it seems to be quite tough for me to choose the correct color and design to fit into my humble crib. After walking up and down the same aisle for at least 30 mins (the sales girl was quite frust at me) then I took one on the aisle...... upon walking up to the cashier to pay for it..... I turned back!! Hahahahaha.... I just have the feeling that it's a wrong one! Wrong color, wrong design, wrong , wrong, wrong! Took it back..... and choose again. This time the sales girl just walk away from me.... Hahahahaha..... How pathetic! Anyway.... after another 15 mins I saw another that catch my eyes..... I thought AHA! THAT'S THE ONE! Took it.... doesn't think much more and made the payment. Bought another pillow as well. :p Upon reaching home, I quickly change the bedsheet, hoping my judgement is right. And.... I comes out quite nice! I like it! Phewwww.....

Just have to get used to live alone, you know? After the break up, it's like kindda difficult in some decision making, like the colors, design, etc n etc.... Sighs... Have to be some sort like independent in making those decisions.... LOL... Not really that tough after all.... I'll make it! :p

Nice?

When is my turn? Hmmm....

Attended my cousin's wedding last Thursday night. Upon reaching, I saw my mum and my dad was standing outside of the restaurant and they were chit chatting with their friends there... So I went to say hello to my uncles and aunties.... Some of them don't even recognise me!! Gosh.... Anyway, some of my uncles that remembers me (thank god!) introduces me as so and so's eldest son.... and they were like "OooHhhhhh!!" Sighs... Went to hang around my cousins and talked to them better.... LOL...

Anyway, as I walk towards the table, I saw more aunties and uncles across my table..... Errrmmm... Tried to avoid them but it's too late..... As I walked pass them while saying hello to them, one of the aunty caught my hand and asked me.... "Eh Belik, when is your turn ah?" Then the other aunty interupted before I could answer "Belik, how can you let your cousin marry first? He is so much younger than you!" (BTW, my cousin is 24 this year only) I was like... ermmm.... kept quiet for awhile... then my uncle said "Eh Belik, where is your girlfriend? Didn't come meh? Not free ar?" Finally I opened my mouth, at that very moment, I saw all their jaws opened..... waiting impatiently for my answers to all those questions..... "I broke up" And quickly they closed their jaw... LOL. It's a priceless moment for me.... Hahahahahaha...... But that's not all, another uncle ask "What happened? That girl can't wait for you anymore ah?" And they broke into laughter..... "No la..... It's me that can't wait anymore" I said..... LOL....

So I continue walking towards my table but another table of uncles and aunties coming up... sighs... Same story.. they stop me and asked me the same questions..... Sighs..... Another table.... And another table...... And another table....... Felt like going up to the stage and pick up the microphone and announce it to all so that I don't have to repeat so many times.... I thought rumours can spread easily.... but not that easy thou.... LOL.... Well...... the dinner was good..... It's been sometime I didn't attend a wedding dinner like this......

Well, the questions did not end that night...... The following day, I have to go to a company retreat....... When I met my boss at that very morning, he asked me "Hey Belik, when are you getting married?" I was like "!!!!!" LOL. Well..... I told him I'm still looking around..... Hahahaha... Well..... He get's the message then.... and he stops asking me....... but I think he told his wife after that...... How I know? Read on..... LOL...

On Saturday..... I was invited by an organization that helps family problems and anyone who wants advice about setting up a family...... (www.family.org.my) Check it out..... Anyway, I met his wife there (my boss) and she asked me "Hey, you came alone eh? Now single back eh?" I was like..... Ermmmmm...... how did you know that? LOL

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........... How long is the line somemore????

Hey, no one still can guess what's Belik stands for? Ok.... I'll tell you all now..... :P

Belik = Stupid (In Iban language)

Try replacing Belik with Stupid in my blog..... It's funny....... ROFL!!

My Wish

I would like to dedicate this to someone out there whom I had such a great time with for the past weeks. Even the time is just a short term, I'll remember that for a long long time.....

"My Wish"

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

Back 2 Blog!

Hahahaha..... Hello there!!! Seems like it's been too long I did not update my blog. Why you may ask....... It's because I've been busy playing with Facebook..... LOL! Got too addicted to it until I forgotten my fans in this blog here..... Hahahahahaha.... I know some of you here (Ahem!) been refreshing you Mozilla Firefox explorer a few times a day just to see if I update my blog. Sorry you have to spoilt your F5 key on your keyboard......My appology......

So what have I been doing since Thursday? Alot! Where should I start with huh? Ok Ok.... Most my blog content are filled with love story, so I'll start with my love story first la... :p Anxious? Patient la..... Jeng Jeng Jenggggggg.....

I got to know this gal..... from ermm.... Face.....ermmm.....book.... yeah.... she's a nice gal... Infact, we are in the middle of video cam conference as we speak. We exchanged mails for quite sometime now.... never meet before... UNTIL the last Saturday, I asked her out, well..... I never expect her answer to be yes actually.... :p I was kindda over joyed when she actually wanted to meet me too. So we set a place and time....... That Saturday was way too long to pass for me.... minutes passed turn to hours.... hours turns to years!! (Over!) LOL.

Anyway, Sunday did actually came..... I drove to that place and waited for her....... I think I was a bit late and I was afraid she has gone because I was late (as I SMS her and no reply) Anyway... I bought my drink already so Ijust stay put hoping she will come..... WOILA! A familiar face that I saw in my Facebook appears.... there she is.... Phew! So we sat down and had some light lunch and drinks and chats.... We were there for about 4 hours I think... LOL. It was nice to chat with her... and she look lovely.... Can't help my eyes looking at her... :P Now... that 4 hours past just like a speeding bullet.... It's like I blink for 4 times only..... Kakakakaka.....

So after we go seperate ways.... we still do keep contacting each other every day and night.... ermm.... mostly at night.... hehehehe..... until at this moment, we typing each other's blog... Hahahahaha..... What goes on after this? Stay toon!!!

Next, I suddenly became the architect of my company.... Hahahah... One fine morning, my boss's sexytary called me and say the BIG Boss wants to see you...... I was like HUH?! I thought he saw me 2 days ago..... and now again?? Jeng Jeng Jenggggggg..... walked into his office.... "Ermm..., Mr. So n So.... you wanted to see me?" He looked up and said " Yeah! Sit! Sit! I have something for you" I was like thinking " Oh shit! Did he saw me playing Facebook in the office?" My eyes searched around his table looking for a BIG envelope but I don't see it...

Then he said "Mike, I want you to in-charge of getting the plan and layout for our new office and also the renovations of the current office" PHEW!!!!! My cold sweats were actually reached my b***s and it was really cold! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Something New

Recently I just got hooked up to this website and it was fun by just going in there..... Hehehehe...... Yeap! It's Facebook! The interface might look abit complicated when you are using it for the first time but after awhile you will get used to it so easily and hooked up to it for hours... just like me! LOL

So anyone out there want to add me to their list? Search for me then but you won't find Belik in there. LOL! OK. For those who doesn't know how to search for me, here the link to it. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=613191621

Time to check my facebook again! WoooHooo!!!

Finding the path......

Here's my mood at this time... :p


Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love

[Verse 1](Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus](Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.

[Verse 2](Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus](Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight](Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus](Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Identity

Everyone has an identity of themself. Why do you need to hide about yourself? Since you all like to say, GOD creates us, GOD carves us out into this world. Well, why need to hide if that's the case? Just show yourself and tell the world who you are. Either you are ugly or pretty, fat or slim or petite, short or tall, specs or no specs..... who cares? God creates us for a reason. So there is no need to hide...... Show yourself and be brave about it. Be responsible of what you did. Do not do something and hide like a mouse....... Show yourself!!!

By the way, I'm a free thinker but I still show myself. I'm not ashame of what I've done because I know what I've done does not hurt anyone.

So do not speak of God if you do not appreciate what He has created for you.

New Book

Ok la.... Since so many of you complaining about me letting go my frust, I stop complaining lor.... Anyway, nothing much for me to tell today..... It's still early now and there's nothing happened to me so far..... LOL. No work no calls no boss!! Yahoo!!!

To Anon#2, sorry to dissapoint you and wasted your energy pressing F5 all the time. LOL.

How would you feel?

When you do something or bought something for your bf/gf, and he/she tells everyone that she got it all by herself and it's her own effort that got it, how would you feel? It's not that we want to have that kind of credits, it's the appreciation and telling people how much you love or care for someone. That's what I need. Not telling everyone around that I don't love her while holding in the hands is the IPod Video that I gave it to her. Is that love? Is that appreciation?

So I took it back. Yes! I know I'm such a ba$t@rd to take it back but what the hell. How would I be able to stand there and watch her sharing the headphones of the IPod that I bought with another guy? Why do I want to give her the phone that I bought for her to call her scandals using the 3G? Why must I let her have a luxury lifestyle when she puts me into this kindda situations? Ok la. The clothes and the bags and the shoes, I let her keep it, I got no use for it also. Well, nevertheless, she took back her stuff also. Who took whose things first?

Today, I just got to know that she had been spreading bad words about me to her colleagues and friends. Sighs. I don't care anymore, she wants to have that bitchy mouth then it's up to her. I don't want to know anymore. And I got to know she is out with another guy who is rich!!! Hahahahaha..... Such a money minded bimbo..... I bet she must be begging for money right now.....

The Holidays are over!!

Welcome back to working days! LOL. I feels great to be going back to work tomorrow. Anyway, I had a great weekend that I spent with a friend of mine. ;) Well, it's obvious it's a she. We went out together and had so much fun together. My gf? Ermmmm.... Not yet.... Hehehehe.....

By the way, I went to a Mac shop the other day and check out this new cool gadget that they recently launched. Yeap! It's the new Ipod Touch!!!!! Been drooling for it since they launched in US. Yeah... That's my new target for my gadget collection. Before buying it, I'm planning to sell of my Ipod Video... Any interested party? Hehehehehe.... It's 80Gb Ipod Video. Interested? Call me and ask me. :)

How many times?

Forgiveness...... How many times can you forgive someone who hurts you or lie to you or cheat you? When you start to forgive, that's when you heal? Is that true? How can you forgive someone who has betray you? I get alot of comments says, time will heal.... time will heal.... time will heal........ When is that time? How long more do I have to wait? What's more do I need to do to be healed? Until I found someone who really love me and willing to sacrifice anything for me? Love maybe, but sacrifice for me, hmmmm...... is it worth it?

She said she is willing to wait for me, and take all my cruel attitude towards her....... but is it worth it? How long will you wait? How long will you take all those painful words from me? I just don't know when I will overcome the fear of loving someone...... To me, right now, is to work and work and work...... That's my priority right now, because works make me forget my life....... Everyday, I was hoping my boss will come and tell me, "Belik, I need you to go Singapore/Thailand/Shanghai/Jakarta/Canada/US/Europe/Maldives to do something" ARGH!!!! At least when I leave the country I might feel better........ :p

Thank God It's Friday!

Every minutes is passing very slowly. Looking forward to go back home and sleep today. It's so boring today...... :( Anyway, I've make out some posibilities of who Anon#2 is......... Someone from friendster.....someone who stays in PJ....... someone whom I have never meet before...... someone whom refreshing my blog now and then...... LOL. That's a good start.

Some people might say I don't know how to appreciate what I going on around me right now. Some people might say, just becareful of what is going around me now. Some may even say, give yourself more time to heal and then only think about it. I would say, I want to be alone and think about it. Think of which one to choose..... Think of what will happen if I choose that....... Think of the consequences......

Have you ever feel that you are being loved and cared crazy-ly? Someone who likes you so much until they want to be with you every single day and night. I don't know about myself, but I felt scared. I felt like I'm being pushed to a corner and I got no where to run. I felt like I'm struggling for space and air. Sighs..... So hard to tell la.....

Will you compare?

If you have a bf........ will you compare what he has done for his ex-gf and what he has done for you? Or better still, what he has given to the ex-gf and also to you? OK. Maybe you will you won't because it's a small item but what if it's a car? What if your bf bought a car for his ex-gf and he did not even buy you a bicycle for you? Would you compare that he loves her more that he love you? How about diamond ring? How about a holiday package to somewhere? Will you compare that? I wish I could get some comment from the girls here and also from the guys. Will you guys compare what she has done for her ex-bf with you?

Who is more ego?

Man or women? Which one more ego? Same? Hard to say? Not definite answer? Is it hard to say you are sorry? Is it hard to say you miss someone? Is it hard to say that you want to meet that person? Sighs......

Why is there ego exist in the first place? Why must there be ego in between a couple/lover after being together for some time? What is ego?

It's Going To Be Long Day

Came back last night at 4am from a pool club in Sunway. Tried to wake up at 6am....... but because being too tired...... I laze on the bed till 7am....... Thinking that I have a meeting this morning, I was very reluctant to wake up but I had too...... Sigh.....

On my way to work this morning..... I almost killed someone on the road....... Well, what happened was, the road nearby my office that going towards KL (I'm going the opposite way). You know those motorcyclist like to ride in the middle of the road and squeezing thru the traffics? Yeah.... just like in the TV advertisement. This motorcyclist was riding in the middle of the road and there was this car coming out of the junction. Both can't see each other coming because there was a traffice jam at that time. BANG! And I was coming from the opposite side and I saw it right infront of my eyes. Seeing that, I slam on my break and tried to stop but the road was wet (It was a wet morning) and my car is still skidding forward. The motorbike was flung to my side of the road (there were 2 lanes on my side and I was in the second lane) and the rider was rolling on the road on the other lane. I knew I will not stop in time, so it's either I hit straight to the bike or I sway to the right and hit the rider or to the left and goes into the drain. Well, ofcourse I choose the bike. LOL. Bloody hell. Just nice when my car touch the bike, my car stops. Phew...... Pulled over to the side of the road and check on my car.... DAMN! A crack on my number plate! Then I check on the rider and he was limping towards the drain side and sit's there....... Serve him right! Let him alive to remember it! Since it's not my problem I continue drive to office and enjoy my nasi lemak nearby my office acting like nothing happened........

To Anon#2

Such a sleepy and slow day. Been cracking my head since this afternoon wondering who is Anon#2. LOL. Anyway, thanks for dropping by to my humble blog. LOL. I'm still wondering do I know you in person?

When I was taking bath this morning (Don't peep huh!) and suddenly this alphabet "W" comes into my mind. Hahahahaha..... Don't know why. I was thinking how did that "W" comes about. Then when you pronounce it, you will realise that it comes from the alphabet "U". When you combines 2 "U" together you will get "W" and the pronouciation for it is "Double U". Hahahahahaha..... Am I correct?

When you are in a relationship, you will think that you know your partner very well. How do you know that you know that person as well as what you think? You may know him/her about what he/she does when you see it. But how do you know when he/she does something that you will never be able to see it? Can you really tell how a person is feeling right now by just looking at his/her face? You really tell what he/she is thinking by just staring at their eyes?

As for me, I'm a kind of person who will keep my mouth shut when someone does something that I don't like. I know it's not good, but my principle is to avoid arguements. But ofcourse, when you are angry at someone, your face could not hide it for long. I would show my long face and just keep quiet even thou someone tries to ask me what is wrong. Alot of girls will get me wrong when they see me like this, they would think I don't love them anymore la.... I hate them la... and whatever shits la..... but will they think what they have done wrong and make me so piss off with them? Will you girls out there think what have you done wrong? OK. So when I spit it out, they would say, "Ahhhhh! It's all your fault, you always show me the long face and I don't like it so I do it more la" WTF!!!!

So do you think you know your spouse or lover very well? Oh, by the way, I'm a scorpion and my signs really describe myself very truely.

Materialistic

LOL. I didn't thought my previous blog will cause such controvesial with all those comments. And I was laughing at myself when I was being called Belik. Anyone has any idea what Belik stands for? For a hint, it's a native word in Sarawak or maybe some in Sabah. Anyway, since we are talking about this topic, there's a story I want to share with you and maybe you could give a comment or two. It was a true story that I read from somewhere.

There was this girl, who has a bf. (yeah, yeah.... same old story) LOL. Read on first. One day, there is this another guy asked her out and said he has something to show her, while she was at work. Since she got no other time to go out with this guy because she has a bf so she decided to lie to her boss that she need to go somewhere and pick up some stuff during lunch time. So the guy brought her out to somewhere in the city and they went to this huge mall with 2 tall building. (You figure out where la) They went to a watch shop and this guy went to the lady in the shop and talk to her something while she was looking around in the shop. Minutes later, this guy told the lady that he wanted to buy a watch there. And it's a limited edition watch which cost RM34K. He reach down to his pocket while this girl who he went out with is watching what he is doing. He took out a bunch of cash and paid the watch with it. Upon seeing the cash this girl was like going nuts and surpised that he actually bought the watch with cash. Ofcourse, when he turn around to look at her, she might look somewhere else and act nothing happen and continue looking at some watch in the shop. After making the payment, he approach her and ask her, "Do you want anything?" "Ermmm... you buying for me?" she said jokingly. "No problem" replied the guy. Thinking that this is the first time they go out, it's not nice to ask anything from a guy, so she replied "Maybe you could get me one of those for Christmas present!" The moment she reach back to home, she tells everyone how cool is that guy to whisk out a bunch of cash to buy that watch. End.

So what did that guy showed to her? SHOWING OFF his money! And the girl? Materialistic? To me, what I see is that, the guy is just trying to impress her with his thick wallet/pocket. After 2 days he might have return the watch to the shop!!!! Hahahahaha..... Those kindda shop has money back guarantee you know. Especially if you purchase it with cash.

So what do you think of this story eh? It sounds like those stupid blonde bimbo story. HAHAHAHA!

A Real Wake Up

This morning was not a very pleasant start of day for me. Imagine when we see each other every time and we argue. It's like the moment we open out eyes and we argue. Sighs. Both's ego are as high as Himalaya Mountain. How to compromise? It's best to split up I guess. No point going on seeing each other.

So today we split our stuff. She took her stuff and I took back mine. Things that she never appreciated. Things that she think is not enough for her. Once she said, love is not everything in a relationship....... material things comes together in the package. Oh boy. I don't know about you girls who is reading this but do think that is true? Do you think that we, the guy, have to give you material things to show you how much we love you? How about the unseen things? Time? Care? Holdings your hands while crossing the road? When you in need of help, we were there for you and help you? Going thru your pain together? Financially support you when you were hungering for the month end pay check?

Yes, it's true, sometime somethings there we give and take as well. But what is the percentage? Well, I've seen alot of girls going thru a process of "EVOLUTION". When they were studying or they got no source of income, and SO happen they found a working boyfriend. She'll stick by him because she feels secured together with him. Then this guy will feel secured and happy too because he knows she feels that way, so this guy will shower her with love and gifts and sometime money. After a few years pass by and this guy will have to somehow reduce those expensive shower because the courting period is over and it's time to think of their future together. So this girl will feels that the shower is getting lesser and lesser each passing years...... Because of she so used of getting a heavy shower, she got uneasy and feels that his shower does keep up to her standard but she still stays on. Till the year she starts working, meeting people out there. So this is where she knows how to shower herself, but being just out in the industry, her shower might be still small and still not enough for her, so still sticks by his shower. After a year or so, her shower got bigger and she feels that his shower does not makes a different to what she has right now..... And that's where she will walk out of the shower of his with her own shower and look for WATERFALL! How about that? The guy being the shower all time has no chance to be a waterfall because of constant showering her........ Is that what a relationship all about? Where is the grateful feelings? Where is the appreciation? Where is the love? Love for the shower and waterfall? Or the guy just being stupid?

ARGH!!!!! I don't know what I'm writing also. Try to understand it if you can....... Crap!!!

What should I do?

I don't know what I'm thinking. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do. It seems it's hard for me to remember what love is anymore. How does love feels like? I'm numb. It's like my door to my heart is being shut tight. I want to open up but it seems that door is shut too tight and I can't open it.

After the last relationship, I felt that it's very hard for me to trust someone. I felt myself very fragile and I may break down anytime soon. It's not that I don't want to give anyone a chance, it's just that I need more time to heal I guess. I felt so miserable for the past 2 weeks. I don't know how to confess my feelings even thou someone confessed it to me their feelings. It's hard for me. I felt so insecure. It's not fair to me and also to anyone. I had to reject the love and I know I might regret it soon or later, but what I know, it's not the right time at the moment.

At the moment, I could see that I'm a damn evil person. I would say I don't miss you. I would also say, I don't want to see you anymore. I would say I have never wanted to care about you. I would say please leave me alone and forget about me. Yeap. That's me right now. Maybe I still afraid of being in love. Maybe I just need more time. Maybe........

A Night With Music

Went out with a group of my friends to karaoke last night at 1 Utama. My first time there. Had a blast there with all of them. And most of it, all of them are girls! LOL. It was fun. Sing till my throat swell........ The package was a good deal I would say. RM44 plus plus for a person, and they included buffet dinner with oyster, sushi, muscle, and some other seafoods and asian foods. It was worth it. We even smuggled a bottle of Jim Bean in there. Hahahahaha....

Been busying upgrading my computer OS today. Yeap. It's Vista. Found that it's not really user friendly as Windows XP. But, what the hell, already formated my old system, so have to keep this Vista. There's alot of software that does not compatible with it. Crap! Have to search for the ones that are compatible to it. ARGHHH!!!

SIN - KL

Back at home at last.... Enough of travelling for the time being..... I hope... Reached at 1 U at 11.15pm..... waited for a cab but none..... Hmmmm.... waited another 15 mins... Arghhh.... WTH! Grab my bags and dragged myself to walk home..... Well, for the first 30 mins walk it was a nice and peaceful walk...... Then for the next 30 mins I was dying for an empty cab to pass by me.... Kept walking till left about 500m to my home, an empty cab pass by me!!!! *&^%$@!!!!

Stop by 7-11 and bought 2 bottles of Coke for my supply at home. Someone seem to stole my Coke from home during my trip at Turkey. Upon reach home, I'm expecting an email from a friend of mine.... Turned on the computer before even turing on the lights! LOL! Now cooling down myself before I take my bath.

Last night my friend called me up and scolded me that I forgotten his birthday...... Errrmmmm... My response to him " Are you a girl?" Hahahahahaha..... Got more scolding from him then..... Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday Wing Fatt!! Ohhh.... guess what? My birthday coming soon........ Hmmmm.... Anyone knows when? LOL. Make sure you ask me if you don't know so that you won't forget my present too..... LOL. Just kidding la.... I think my this year's birthday I want to do a big blast party..... Anyone want to join? Hehehehe....Why big u ask? Well.... it's my full one year of my 3rd decade in this life! Phew.... time flies eh? OK la.. gotta go take bath and then have my coke+black label=sleep.....! Unpacking? Nahh... tomorrow la....

By the window in Singapore

Sitting by the window overlook the street in Singapore and a couple of other hotels across the street, this is where I am right now and typing this blog. Just got back dinner with my colleagues in Singapore and back to hotel. Tried to catch some movie on the 32' LCD TV but nothing interest me....... Then slowly my brains suddenly became active and alot of stuff running thru my mind....... STOP!!!!!! WHAT AM I DOING HERE!!!!???? Stop thinking!!!!!

Grab my laptop and turned it on........ Adjust my laptop to find a strong signal for the free wi-fi here.... And found a spot just by the window.... And here I am..... Blogging...... LOL.... Dang! I have to stay awake to wait for my boss to arrive at 11pm later.... He will be sharing my room tonight because he wanted to take over my room when I leave tomorrow. Errrr..... There's 2 single bed in the room...... So nothing between me and him... Hahahaha.... Damn.... I can't stop thinking.....

Want to know what I'm thinking right now? Well, I've been thinking about my ex-gf right now....... Yeah...... I think this is what happen when you are alone and got nothing to do...... ARGHHH!!!!!! Keep blogging MICHAEL!!! Focus!!!!! Listen to Chris Daughtry!!!

Chris Daughtry

Hi guys, being updating my blog too often eh? Sighs. Oh... I just bought a CD by Chris Daughtry. The album is called Daughtry. I want to share one of the song here with you guys because this song is actually reflecting what is going on around me right now.

Over You

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up then tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought to doubt you;
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces
And spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.


I was repeating this song over and over again and shouting my lungs out in the car. LOL. Crazy eh? And I didn't even realise how fast I was going until song ends and starting to repeat again. Hahahahahaha..... Go buy the CD. It's worth the money. Trust me. The whole album is nice.

Home Sweet Home

Now after the trip, back to work, back to my life. LOL. How sad is that eh? Anyway, more travelling coming and this time I'll be going to Singapore next week. Duty call. Those who knows me well, they know I have some feelings about that country. What feelings? Hmmm... It's too sensitive to write in this blog here. LOL.

Anyway, yesterday, on my way to lunch, my colleague told me that my circle of family and friends is too small. Hmmm.... that kept me thinking the whole day till today actually. What circles can fit everyone in there? For my past 31 years of life, I've been thru a lot of experience. The good ones and the bad ones. The circle that I have right now, there's only my family in there and some of my close friends. Do you think we could just let anyone into that circle? I will not simply just add someone in there unless they are proven to be a trust worthy person. Ofcourse thru time, there will be someone going in and also going out of the circle. But how do we know that someone who we let them in will not take you for granted? It's hard to tell.

My colleague told me that I should loosen up my security in my circle. LOL. It's like letting in a terrorist into my circle and place a time bomb in there. Maybe I might be too uptight about who is around me but it's not easy to heal a wound that has been cut on the same spot hundreds of times.

Day 8 The Final Day!! (Turkey)

Today, we have to hurry because the tour guide promised us to bring us to a place which is out of the itinerary for us to shop! LOL. It was the request from those aunties that want to shop for sweets and nuts. We went to this place called the Spice Market. We head to a shop that sells a lot of spices and those sweets in there. Bought 2 packs of apple tea powder. Want to try? It's nice. That's their favourite tea there. Next we head to another market, it's called the Grand Bazaar. It's really grand there, the bazaar is full of hand crafted souvenir and Kashmir. I just bought a T-Shirt which is so cool that when people see it they got dizzy. LOL! Bought more souvenirs there. Sighs. Hehehehehehe....

After shop shop shop, we head to a restaurant for our final lunch in Turkey. :( We head straight to airport after that and it's time to go back. Anyway, I miss my nasi lemak!!! Hahahaha...

Day 7 (Turkey)

Ahhh.... It's 6am (Turkish time) and I was up and prepared for the next journey. This time we will head back to Istanbul and it's about 450KM from Ankara. Had our breakfast and we head to Ankara's oldest city for a short visit. Next we went to see the father of Turkey, Attaturk. (I think I got name right) 'Atta' stands for father and 'turk' stands for Turkey.

Then we start our journey from Ankara to Istanbul at about 11am. Stops couple of time for lunch and also toilet breaks. We reached Istanbul at about 3.30pm and we have to rush for our cruise. We cruised along the Bosphorus Canal which is in between of the Black Sea and Sea Of Marmara. It was a nice and pleasent cruise and we got to see alot of nice and expensive house along the canal. We even pass by a palace which had been converted to a hotel and guess how much a night stay in there. It's 15K per night!

The cruise last about 45 mins only and then we head back to our hotel. It's the same hotel that we stay on the first night. Cartoon Hotel! LOL. But in a different room now. After checking in and putting in our stuff into the hotel, we head for a restaurant opposite the street for our dinner. And guess what, it's Chinese food! LOL. I would not recommend anyone to eat Chinese food there. The food sucks a million! Tasteless! Anyway, the food is on the table, we had to eat it.

After the dinner, we were allowed to walk around the area and do our shopping. Head back to hotel at about 9pm and prepare for the next day!

Day 6 (Turkey)

Last 2 days for my trip here. Sighs.... It's like so fast the time pass. This morning my colleagues went for the hot air ballon trip which is a different itinerary from the trip. It's USD$180 for that ride. They seems to had fun there and they told me that one of the ballon got stuck on a cliff and there were power lines around them and they could not fly up back. Hmmm... Don't know what happened to them then.

After they got back, we went on our trip to more stone house. It's soooooooo....... beautiful in there. There the tour guide explained to us how the Christians last time hide away from the war from the Muslims. And how Christianity was spread during that time. When their hideout was found they moved to further up hill and hid under the rocks which they called home. The dug the soft rocks on the hill and hid under there. Imagine the cave was like 8 floors down and there are about 3000 people lives in there at that time. We saw alot of rooms in there where they sleep and cook. Then we head to a restaurant which build under those rocks too.... How cool is that eh? The food was nice.

Next, there's nothing much after the lunch. We took the coach and head to Ankara, the capital of Turkey. Upon reaching here was already 7pm and we had dinner. And now I'm going for their sauna room.... Hehehehe..... Catch ya later!!

Day 5 (Turkey)

Another long day today. This time, we will be driving from west coast of Turkey to eastern part of Turkey. The journey to our next destination was about 12 hours but we do stop by some souvenir shops and also a wine factory.

First stop is a rest area where they serve yogurt mixed with poppy seeds!!! Unfortunately we didn't stop by the poppy farm because we were in a rush. I tried some of it from my friend but I don't really like it because I don't like yogurt. UWEKKKK!!!! Next we move on to a gems factory where they show us the beautiful and of course expensive gems that they have there. The turquoise gems is so beautiful. Wanted to buy one but no one to give to. LOL. So I skip shopping there and just took some pictures only.

We move on and we reach to this volcanic site where these people who lives there actually dig the lava formed stoned into their house. See the pictures when I upload it. It's so nice and beautiful. Bought some souvenir there.

Then we go to a wine factory and they let us taste one of their wine there and they have this beautifully carved bottle that contains their wine in there. Bought 2 bottles of it for USD$8.50 each bottle.

Then now we move on to our hotel, which nothing much there but we have to pay just to use their swimming pool. Shesshhhh!!! That sucks! After dinner, I went to a corner of the hotel lobby and finish a bottle of my wine while chit chatting with some of the tour members here. It's was a fun night and we retire to our room after that.

Day 4 (Turkey)

Damn! Overslept! Must be the Turkish Bath last night. LOL. Anyway, we have to move out quite early today. 6.15am was the wake up call and 6.45 we have to depart from the hotel. Next we went for a leather factory. It was 8am when we reach there and those chap was nice enough to open their doors early just for us. And guess what, they even bring in models to have a leather fashion show for us. After the show, we head into the leather shop. I was drooling when I saw those nice and soft leather sheep skin jackets. Wanted to buy one, but I think it's abit of overprice (opens early for you, tourist, of course overprice) even thou they said they would give us a 30% discount. I think I could get those jackets in KL about 1/3 of the price there but the quality would be different la. Sighs. Still drooling while walking out of the shop till the coach.

Anyway, next we went to another ruins and learned more about the Roman's and Greek's ancient city. Then we went for lunch nearby. Then we took another about 1.30 hour ride to another ruin city which they have a very nice landscape. The city is actually behind of a hill that is covered with white calcium minerals. The water that flows out from the hills are actually contained alot of calcium and when they flow down the hill over a long time, it would cover the hill with the minerals and it makes the hill white. It looks like snow if you see from far. Until today, the water still flows and the water is warm. It's about 35 degree Celsius. They even have a pool for people to dip in. It was supposed to be believe that the water could cure alot of sickness.

Then we head for our hotel which is only about 10 mins from there. The hotel is nice too, because they have alot of pools in there. Thermal pool, jacuzzi pool, and a swimming pool. After checking in, I immediately change to by trunks and head for the thermal pool. The pool is actually hot with water oozing out from the earth and the water contains high amount of sulfur. It was a great experience dipping in that pool there. And also, it was supposed to cure some skin sickness too. Then I head for the jacuzzi pool and relax in there till dinner time. After dinner and here I am blogging. LOL. It's 10.40pm right now and I'm feeling so exhausted. Time to go bed now. Early wake up tomorrow. Sighs. 5.30am wake up call, that's what I heard. Gotta go!

Day 3 (Turkey)

Had to wake up early today because we have a long journey to go. First in the morning, we go to the city of Troy. There we could see the ruins of the ancient city, Troy and there is really a Trojan horse there (still no picture yet). Do you all know about the war between Greeks and the Trojan's? It was a myth and till today there is no hard proof that says there was this war. (Like in the movie) but the city of Troy does really exist and it was so nice and so beautiful. Sadly it was ruined by the occasionally earth quake in Turkey. So what we see right now is only the ruins. Manage to pick up some rocks from the wall of Troy. Hehehehe.....

Next we head to an olive oil factory which is just about an hours bus ride to more southern of Troy. There we learned how the olive oil was made and how does the trees look like. Do you know that an olive tree and produce olive fruits for a thousand years?!!! WOW! I could be a olive tychoon if I have a farm like that. LOL.

Next, another long journey down south again. (I forgot the name of that place currently) Let me check the map again I'll tell you) In the mean time, we reach to this beautiful hotel. And guess what? I manage to get a Turkish Bath!!!! COOL!!! I love it! I'll give it a 5 star rating. You have my recommendation for it. What so nice? Hehehehehe.... Let me tell you la, ha? First when we reach the hotel, after checking in and all those stuff, we were told if we want a Turkish Bath we have to book a time for it and I did. I took the 8.30pm appointment, because the dinner starts at 7.30pm and I want to be first one to go for it first. (I'll tell you why later) And others of our tour members went for the 9pm and some 9.30pm appointment.

After dinner, I was so anxious for the bath and I arrived first at the door of the bath. LOL. Kiasu eh? When 8.30pm arrives, I walked in to the bath and there I met this nice Turkish chap and I told him I'm here for the 8.30pm appointment. Next, he showed me the changing room which only a 3 metre by 4 metre room and only covered using a curtain. So I went in there and put my things in the locker provided, and stripped my self down (except my swimming trunks ofcourse) LOL. Then he just dashed in ask me whether I want him to massage me or his wife..... I was like er..... your wife? I said, it's ok for him to massage me. LOL. So he bring me in to this round room and there was this mosaic table in the center of the room. In the room, it was like sauna with the heat just rush to my face and semi-naked body. Then he ask me to lay down on the mosaic table. And guess what, the table is hot!!! I felt like I'm being fried like a steak when I lay down on it. Then he splash alot of water over my body and also the table because I was like a worm crying out for my life up there. And when he notice that, he poured some cold water on me. How embarassing. LOL. After my whole body is wet and reddish like a lobster, he use a silk glove and start rubbing my whole body. According to them, that supposed to rub off all the dead skin on your body. I felt so nice........ hehehehehe...... It's like you are being pampered and someone is bathing you just like when you are a baby last time. LOL. After the scrub, here comes the soap. He dips in this cloth and makes bubbles from it. Hmmmm.... It's hard to describe it now. Anyway, he puts the bubbles on me, and again I felt like I'm a baby again playing with the bubbles. LOL. With the body fulls of bubbles, he begans to rub and scrub and massage me again. It feels so nice. The massage last about 20 mins. Back of the body, legs, arms, butt, hands, neck, and head. A full body massage. It feels so nice. After that, he pours more water on me, to get rid of the soap from my body. And he asked me to wake up and brought me a towel to dry myself up. Next he brought me out of the room, while I'm still sweating like a pig, and he asked me to lay down on a chair and give me a mud facial treatment. LOL. And that was the end of the Turkish Bath. All that, for only USD$30!!! Cheap eh? I would recommend you guys who ever got a chance to come to Turkey, you should try it but the ones in main city would cost more and shorter massage time. If you really wanted it, should go for it out of the city limits. Woohoo!! Feels so refresh now. And it's just nice for my bed time.

Day 2 (Turkey)

It's 7am here and it's 12pm in KL (same day). Woke up and took a shower. Next we head to the roof top of the hotel for our first breakfast in Istanbul. Superior view (Sorry, still no picture yet). After breakfast, we head to a palace which being converted into a museum. There, we learn about the history of a ruler in Turkey. And they have many priceless gems and diamonds!!! Too bad we were not allowed to take pictures in there. :( (Wish I could set up a team called Ocean 14) LOL. Then we head for another gigantic mosque nearby. And lunch after that.

Next, we took the coach again and this time we are heading south of Istanbul, about 5 hours bus ride and in between, we travelled by ferry to cross the bay. We were heading to the city of Troy but we only get to visit it on the next day. Guess you all see the movie Troy by Brad Pitt before right? So there is where we heading. We reached our hotel there about 6pm and everyone was tired. So everyone retired to their room after dinner. Nothing much happen tonight.

Day 1 (Turkey)

After 7 hours of flight from KL to Qatar (DOHA), the first thing I'm looking for, SMOKING ROOM! Hahahaha..... The addictions is killing me. Sighs. And also the problems that I've thinking while in the plane. Too much tensions! Sorry guys, no pictures yet as I'm using my colleague's laptop to write this blog. (Not so high tech like mine that's why can't upload photos yet) LOL. Just kidding. So where am I.... Oh... At Doha. I see alot of Sheiks here..... LOL. Those filthy rich Sheiks.

Anyway, the transit wasn't too long until we take our next flight to Turkey (Istanbul). Another 5 hours of flight there. It feels like forever. Upon reaching the airport in Istanbul, we were greeted by a local tour guide here. He was nice and friendly. And most of all, he knowledgeable about his country. I wonder what he got in his history exam.... Hmmm...

Our first place of visit was the Blue Mosque. From outside, it just look like a normal mosque, but by the time we walk in there, it is so huge!!! And the building is made by marble. Mostly whole building. But why do they call it a Blue Mosque? That's because their interior carving and decorations are maded by blue marble which only Turkey has it and not anywhere in the world.

Next, we went to check into our hotel. And the name of the hotel is Cartoon Hotel! Yeah! You saw it right. The whole hotel is filled with cartoon character's decorations and the carving on the walls too are the cartoon characters. The staff of the hotel, they dress up ................ normally of course with shirt and tie. LOL. I bet you were expecting them to dress up in cartoon characters eh? LOL. Next we were brought to a street which has alot of shops and there was alot of people on the street. Tried on of their bread which looks like pretzels but they are not. It's hard like a stone. LOL. Then we tried the Turkish ice-cream. And it taste kind of different from the one in KL but it's nice. And the price for the ice-cream, it's 5 YTL (Yari Turkish Lira means New Turkey Lira). It's some how about RM 17 for that 2 scoops of ice-cream. Killing eh? I could get it for RM4.50 in KL. Anyway, it's once in a lifetime kindda thing, so what the hell.

Oppsss.. time up and we have to head back to hotel for our dinner. Took the tour bus and we went to a restaurant. It was a very superb restaurant, (minus the food) because we had a great time watching the shows there. Belly dance! Yeah! Superb Turkish girls..... :p I was so impresed by their dance and I practically almost recorded the whole show with my video cam and left not much of tape for the rest of the trip. LOL. After the dinner and everyone seems impressed with the show (besides the food) and we head back to hotel for our rest.

Thank you all......

Thanks to PQ and annonymous (whoever is that) for the support that I received from you guys! And also the calls that I got when I'm here. You are the best! I will try my best to enjoy my trip here. Life goes on eh? Anyway, I will update my blog after this about the trip here. Stay tuned!

A Sad Beginning Of My Trip

What a screwed up trip I'm having here right now actually. Broke up with my gf seconds before I step into the plane. Spoilt my whole entire mood already. What a trip eh? Damn it! Must be some of you wondering what happened eh?

The day I was about to step out of the house to go to the airport, I suddenly thought of something that save it into my thumbdrive to bring it here. Then out of nowhere I saw this folder in My Documents. I opened it and say the MSN chat history file. I opened it and I saw this chat between my gf and her sis. And in this chat, I found out alot of stuff about what she is doing behind my back. And that's all I could say right now. Damn trip!

Turkey Here I Come!!! Part II

Time now is 1.15pm. There's only 14 hours 49 mins to go for me to get my butt in the flight to Turkey! Yeah! Can't wait for it. Hmmm... Let's see if I bring everything. Afraid I'm too excited and forgotten to some necessities.

Passport. Check. Clothes for 10 days. Check. Tooth brush. Check. Hair cream. Check. Shaver. Check. Tooth paste. Check. Shaving cream. Check. Handphone. Check. (DUH! I will kill myself if I forget to bring that). DV Cam. Check. Alas, my most favourite item. A fully charged PSP! CHECK! I guess that's all about it. Oh yeah..... One more. USD$. Still got time.

Stay tuned for my update of my trip. Till then. Bon Voyage!

Turkey here I come!!!

Yeah! Just got my itinerary for my trip to Turkey. Hmmm... Seems like it's all pack with sight seeing and travelling from one state to another. I sure hope it's fun. Heard from alot people that Turkey is a very nice place. How long will I be there? Oh... it's 9 days and 7 nights. Expenses fully paid by company. Except shopping la. Hahahaha.... So excited. I guess this trip came just at the right time for me to get away from all these problems that I'm having right now.

Well.... at least for a while.

But still, just leave all those behind for a while, relax and enjoy!!! Yeah....! That's what I'm gonna do. Don't worry, I'll post the picture up here once I got back from my trip. And I hope I can find some blue stone there and bring back. Hope the customs doesn't stop me for smuggling stones back. Tsk Tsk!

A life just too short

Yesterday, I was at friend's bf's funeral. It was a hit and run. That's what I heard. Didn't get a chance to talk to her yet. She was too emotionally down and sad so I just don't want to make things worse for her more by asking her those questions. Me and my friend was outside of the church watching the funeral. Anyway, Theresal, if you are reading this, my condolence to you and your bf's family.

Come to think of it, our life can be taken away just in a snap of a finger. How fragile is that huh? Anything can happen to us anytime anywhere. Sickness, desease and even our own kind can take away our life just like that. But can we know when our time comes? Can we look into our future and see what befall us and bring us to another life? I wish I could. Everyone wish that too right?

So boys and girls out there, just becareful what you do and the people you mix with. You might not know what and who the kind of people you dealing with.

Are you a boring person?

Are you boring? Do you know you are boring to some people? How do you know when you bored someone? The expression on the face? The lack of attention? Spending lesser time with you? Find a reason everyday to stay out of home till late night so that he/she do need to see you or meet you? First of all, do you bored yourself?

You tell me!

Just got back from work. I feel so pissed off these couple of weeks. Just want to look for a space to let out my anger.

What do you call a person who tells you lies? A LIAR! Hmmm... How about a person who lies to you not only once but over and over again? A CHEATER! Ok. That was easy. How about a person who lie to you and using your resources to do it while you don't realise it? A LEECH! Burn it to death! Low life bug! Ahh.... that's more like it. How about a person who lie to you, sucking up all your resources and then you realise the pain? A BLOOD SUCKING VAMPIRE! Ok. Now you are a vampire too because you want to stay with that person but that person tells you that you are here because that person needs your blood. What do you call that person as? A RUTHLESS SHIT! Fine. You keep on supplying that person for your blood, but that person still thinks your blood is not sweet enough, that person hunts for more. What do you call that person? A GREEDY BLOOD SUCKING VAMPIRE! Fine. You still let that person hunts for more blood outside and you still supplying yours as well. Then that person says that you are too boring to be with. Better off with another one. What do you call that person? An IMMATURE GREEDY BLOOD SUCKING VAMPIRE!

Ahhhhhh... Hmmmmm...... Still feeling piss off after writing this. What to do? BOOZE!

9 Things You Simply Must Do To Succees in Love and Life

There was a short discussion in the office today by one of our manager about the title today and I found it very meaningful for me. I just wanted to share it with you all.

1. Dig it up.
[ Uncovering your talents and abilities. We must know what is our strength and what we are good at. Once we know these things, we should hold on to it and stand with it]

2. Pull the tooth.
[ Letting go what hurts us. We can't drag on something if we knew what is holding us back or hurting us because this will not only slow us down but it might make us can't progress or look for a better one]

3. Play the movie.
[ Visualize what the future will be and what you will achieve when you do certain things. We must know what we are doing and what we are heading to]

4. Do something.
[Simply take action to resolve the problem. Don't just sit around and wait for what is next to happen. It might get worse most of the time if we wait]

5. Act like an ant.
[In order to resolve a problem, we have to do it steps by steps. Breakdown the problem and solve them one at a time. Just like an ant, they breakdown their jobs to bring food back to their nest]

6. Hate well.
[ Determine what's we don't want in our life and get rid of it. Also making sure those things will never come back into our life]

7. Don't play fair.
[If someone treats you badly, we are not supposed to treat them bad as well, we should be doing better than them, treat them nice]

8. Be humble.
[Admit our own weakness and mistakes. Most of all, learn from it and never repeat the mistakes again!]

9. Upset the right people.
[Sometime to solve a problem, we get alots of idea to solve it. Some maybe right some maybe wrong, but if we know that we have a way to solve things correctly, we should stand firm and do it]

Well, I hope you guys see what I see in those statements there.

Need a break

Hello my friends!!! The moment I login to my blog account, I see alot of spider webs. Hehehehe.... That's because I have not been updating my page for such a long time. Well, here I am, back in action. So what have I been doing for the past 5 months?

Hmm... Let's start with April. Finally, me and my darling have some peace by ourself. We moved to Damansara Perdana and it's a very nice and peaceful area. We rented a service apartment here and it's just nice to for us. Well, if we get married someday sure we will have to buy a new place. At the moment, it's just nice for us. So we have been very busy shopping at Ikea which is just 5 mins drive from our place!!! How convenient is that, huh? (For her) Anyway, we planned to have a house warming somewhere end of this year. So all of you guys and girls are invited.

May..... nothing much, still alot of shopping for the furniture. Oh... I went to Singapore for a couple of days to work. And guess what? They are building a ferries wheel that is bigger that "The Eye" that we have in Titiwangsa. LOL. Kiasu eh? Check out the image.

Took that along the highway near the port. I forgotten the name of the port. I gues they should have finish by now. According to them, the cabin will look like a capsule and there are about 35 capsules and each capsules can fit 30 people. WOW!

Next, MLTR concert in Genting. Superb band! Nice songs! Old and new! Crazy people! Simply marvelous. Just ignore that head. Hehehe....

And my most recent trip to Shanghai! Land of the "Pearl". If you know what I meant...... Hehehehe... Stayed there for almost 3 weeks and I see alot of things there. Hehehe.... (Cuci mata la) It was summer at this time and it was so hot! Imagine the weather is like 40 degree every afternoon and sometime more. When I step out of the hotel, sweats begin to flow out and I'm all wet (shirt only) within 5 minutes! Imagine that.

People Square. Yeah.... That's why they call it People Square. Look at the amount of people there. It was just Sunday morning. Imagine during the weekdays. You could hardly move around there. The amount of people here can fill up 2 Dataran Merdeka Square standing side by side! Phew!

A Night with Celebrities

Last night was a heaven's night for me. Seeing so many celebrities in a night. Hehehehe... Well, you must be wondering where I was last night. I was in the launch of the new Celebrity Fitness at Bangsar Village II. There was so many of them, like Amber Chia, Rashyid Salleh, Naz, Ning Baizura, Patrick Teoh and so on... and ofcourse my girlfriend Sheila!! Hehehehe...

Free flow of wine and beer whole night long. It's heaven! No pictures? I was too busy getting myself with the drinks there until I forgotten I have a camera phone. Hahahahah.... Anyway, got to know them and shoke hands with them only.

Hmmm... I'm running out of topic to write in here. Damn. Anyone has any suggestions?

A week

Wah! It has been a while since I update this blog. Been busy with work and also especially with my dearest darling Sheila. Yeah. It has been almost a week we are back together and I'm really happy with the progress we are going right now. Everyones learn from theirs or others mistakes. I have learned alot. Right now, we talk to each other more openly and that is what we supposed to do since the beginning.

Critisim doesn't have to be bad all the time. It actually corrects us when we done something wrong. Makes us to think more wiser. I love exchanging thoughts about ourself with her. Just that we don't take it as an arguement but a discussion of how to improve our relationship and our character. Being in a relationship means we have to share everything we have. Good things or bad things as well.

To my readers who has not seen my gf before, well you're lucky that I'm going to post it here now. hehehe.Just don't drool till your keyboard get spoilt.

The return

Who ever that was following my blog might have noticed that I have took out 2 post from here. Why? Anyone what to guess? Got banned by Blogger? No. Got complain by the readers because after they finish reading my blog and they notice their salive is all over their keyboard? No.

Well, we are back together. WHAT?!?! Well, it's true, we talked things out and we figured we will try another time to save this relationship. Let's just pray that there will be nomore break ups anymore as I do not want to hurt anyone neither I'm being hurt by anyone anymore. Well, that's about it. Now we have to figure out how to tell all our friends that we are back together. Any suggestion anyone? Or just refer them to this blog here? Hahahaha....

Sick and Tired

Didn't make it to work today. Called in sick. Well, I'm not making up stories here but really sick. Soar throat, cough and fever. Damn! I have to go out tonight. Sighs.... Don't care la. I am still going out no matter what. Can't miss Friday night. Hehehehe... That's what people say live life to the fullest eh? Enjoy while still can.

Tired also. Came back last night at about 4am. Hang out with my friends in Klang. Met a couple of new friends. To my friend who is reading this, thanks for bringing me out man. It was a nice outing. Hehehehe... I will call you out again if tonight I don't get anything. :)

Gotta run.

A new me

It has been 6 days since the break up. I think and think about it all the time. Even when I was drunk. I still think of it. So sick of it. I want to get it over and start a new life. Now my life will be different. I will not repeat the same mistake again. I will not love anyone unconditionally anymore. That's stupid! The would be no such thing of unconditional love in my dictionary of life anymore.

At the moment, I'm in Sandakan, that's good. Away from KL for a moment and give me some chance to meet anyone I want here without any restrictions. I can do whatever I want now. I just hope these 3 days here will clear off my mind and wake me up.

Till then.

Future or no future?

Does anyone here DOESN'T think of their future? Does anyone here just passing the day with what they have all the time? No right? Who in the world that is so stupid to do that? Everyone thinks of their future. Everyone wants a better life out there.

From young till today, we will think of our own future. When we were schooling, we think of what we want to be in the future. When we are in college or university, we think what we will be after graduate. When we work, we think of what we want to achieve in that company. When we are courting, we think of how to makes our lifes better when we get marry. When we retired, we think of how to survive going thru the rest of the life.

See. Nobody want to spend their days not thinking what's going to happen next. For example, you have RM100 for you to spend for the rest of the week until your next pay comes out. And you saw this dress that cost you RM30 and you like it so much. Do you buy it or not? Do you want to spend that RM30 just for the sake of that? Fine, let's say you bought that dress and now you are left RM70. The you pass by a fancy restaurant that you like, do you walk in there and order the food? Yes? Fine, let's say you done that too. And the food there only cost you RM15. Now you are left with RM55. With this RM55, do you think you could go thru the week with that? I don't think so. What if you were bad luck that week and something has gone wrong with your car? A hose in your car is leaking fluid and you need to fix it. Oh well, to fix back that hose only cost you maybe RM40 that's because you know that mechanic likes you so went there and fix it. Now you left RM15. Petrol? Toll? Parking? Food for the rest of the week? Where does that come from?

I've learned alot of lesson from my this recent relationship. I begin to wonder if this girl is serious with me. If she comes and tell me that she got freaked out when I talk to her about our future, I think it's best that we have to go seperate ways. When I was with her, I think about our future, I want to buy house, car, savings...... These things doesn't come EASY! I have to plan all these in order to make it happen. If I don't plan all these things, when the time we want to get marry, where the hell we going to stay? Where the hell I going to the money to make a fancy wedding that she dream of? How the hell I want to send my kids for education? If I don't think of these, then you would have a reason to leave me and find A BETTER OFF GUY!

So what if I do think of those things? Then it means I have my own way to handle things. When I don't buy her that dress doesn't mean I love her less. Think of the other way around, I don't buy it because I think it is not necessary. Futhermore, that's just because her colleague was wearing it and you want it too. Come on la. Be original.

If you think you just want to spend your days with what you have right now, then go ahead. No one will look upon you. I will not look upon you. The boss will not look upon you. And you will never go anywhere in the company if your mindset it like that.