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Hahahaha..... Hello there!!! Seems like it's been too long I did not update my blog. Why you may ask....... It's because I've been busy playing with Facebook..... LOL! Got too addicted to it until I forgotten my fans in this blog here..... Hahahahahaha.... I know some of you here (Ahem!) been refreshing you Mozilla Firefox explorer a few times a day just to see if I update my blog. Sorry you have to spoilt your F5 key on your keyboard......My appology......

So what have I been doing since Thursday? Alot! Where should I start with huh? Ok Ok.... Most my blog content are filled with love story, so I'll start with my love story first la... :p Anxious? Patient la..... Jeng Jeng Jenggggggg.....

I got to know this gal..... from ermm.... Face.....ermmm.....book.... yeah.... she's a nice gal... Infact, we are in the middle of video cam conference as we speak. We exchanged mails for quite sometime now.... never meet before... UNTIL the last Saturday, I asked her out, well..... I never expect her answer to be yes actually.... :p I was kindda over joyed when she actually wanted to meet me too. So we set a place and time....... That Saturday was way too long to pass for me.... minutes passed turn to hours.... hours turns to years!! (Over!) LOL.

Anyway, Sunday did actually came..... I drove to that place and waited for her....... I think I was a bit late and I was afraid she has gone because I was late (as I SMS her and no reply) Anyway... I bought my drink already so Ijust stay put hoping she will come..... WOILA! A familiar face that I saw in my Facebook appears.... there she is.... Phew! So we sat down and had some light lunch and drinks and chats.... We were there for about 4 hours I think... LOL. It was nice to chat with her... and she look lovely.... Can't help my eyes looking at her... :P Now... that 4 hours past just like a speeding bullet.... It's like I blink for 4 times only..... Kakakakaka.....

So after we go seperate ways.... we still do keep contacting each other every day and night.... ermm.... mostly at night.... hehehehe..... until at this moment, we typing each other's blog... Hahahahaha..... What goes on after this? Stay toon!!!

Next, I suddenly became the architect of my company.... Hahahah... One fine morning, my boss's sexytary called me and say the BIG Boss wants to see you...... I was like HUH?! I thought he saw me 2 days ago..... and now again?? Jeng Jeng Jenggggggg..... walked into his office.... "Ermm..., Mr. So n So.... you wanted to see me?" He looked up and said " Yeah! Sit! Sit! I have something for you" I was like thinking " Oh shit! Did he saw me playing Facebook in the office?" My eyes searched around his table looking for a BIG envelope but I don't see it...

Then he said "Mike, I want you to in-charge of getting the plan and layout for our new office and also the renovations of the current office" PHEW!!!!! My cold sweats were actually reached my b***s and it was really cold! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Something New

Recently I just got hooked up to this website and it was fun by just going in there..... Hehehehe...... Yeap! It's Facebook! The interface might look abit complicated when you are using it for the first time but after awhile you will get used to it so easily and hooked up to it for hours... just like me! LOL

So anyone out there want to add me to their list? Search for me then but you won't find Belik in there. LOL! OK. For those who doesn't know how to search for me, here the link to it. http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=613191621

Time to check my facebook again! WoooHooo!!!

Finding the path......

Here's my mood at this time... :p


Hugh Grant - Way Back Into Love

[Verse 1](Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus](Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.

[Verse 2](Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus](Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight](Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus](Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Identity

Everyone has an identity of themself. Why do you need to hide about yourself? Since you all like to say, GOD creates us, GOD carves us out into this world. Well, why need to hide if that's the case? Just show yourself and tell the world who you are. Either you are ugly or pretty, fat or slim or petite, short or tall, specs or no specs..... who cares? God creates us for a reason. So there is no need to hide...... Show yourself and be brave about it. Be responsible of what you did. Do not do something and hide like a mouse....... Show yourself!!!

By the way, I'm a free thinker but I still show myself. I'm not ashame of what I've done because I know what I've done does not hurt anyone.

So do not speak of God if you do not appreciate what He has created for you.

New Book

Ok la.... Since so many of you complaining about me letting go my frust, I stop complaining lor.... Anyway, nothing much for me to tell today..... It's still early now and there's nothing happened to me so far..... LOL. No work no calls no boss!! Yahoo!!!

To Anon#2, sorry to dissapoint you and wasted your energy pressing F5 all the time. LOL.

How would you feel?

When you do something or bought something for your bf/gf, and he/she tells everyone that she got it all by herself and it's her own effort that got it, how would you feel? It's not that we want to have that kind of credits, it's the appreciation and telling people how much you love or care for someone. That's what I need. Not telling everyone around that I don't love her while holding in the hands is the IPod Video that I gave it to her. Is that love? Is that appreciation?

So I took it back. Yes! I know I'm such a ba$t@rd to take it back but what the hell. How would I be able to stand there and watch her sharing the headphones of the IPod that I bought with another guy? Why do I want to give her the phone that I bought for her to call her scandals using the 3G? Why must I let her have a luxury lifestyle when she puts me into this kindda situations? Ok la. The clothes and the bags and the shoes, I let her keep it, I got no use for it also. Well, nevertheless, she took back her stuff also. Who took whose things first?

Today, I just got to know that she had been spreading bad words about me to her colleagues and friends. Sighs. I don't care anymore, she wants to have that bitchy mouth then it's up to her. I don't want to know anymore. And I got to know she is out with another guy who is rich!!! Hahahahaha..... Such a money minded bimbo..... I bet she must be begging for money right now.....

The Holidays are over!!

Welcome back to working days! LOL. I feels great to be going back to work tomorrow. Anyway, I had a great weekend that I spent with a friend of mine. ;) Well, it's obvious it's a she. We went out together and had so much fun together. My gf? Ermmmm.... Not yet.... Hehehehe.....

By the way, I went to a Mac shop the other day and check out this new cool gadget that they recently launched. Yeap! It's the new Ipod Touch!!!!! Been drooling for it since they launched in US. Yeah... That's my new target for my gadget collection. Before buying it, I'm planning to sell of my Ipod Video... Any interested party? Hehehehehe.... It's 80Gb Ipod Video. Interested? Call me and ask me. :)

How many times?

Forgiveness...... How many times can you forgive someone who hurts you or lie to you or cheat you? When you start to forgive, that's when you heal? Is that true? How can you forgive someone who has betray you? I get alot of comments says, time will heal.... time will heal.... time will heal........ When is that time? How long more do I have to wait? What's more do I need to do to be healed? Until I found someone who really love me and willing to sacrifice anything for me? Love maybe, but sacrifice for me, hmmmm...... is it worth it?

She said she is willing to wait for me, and take all my cruel attitude towards her....... but is it worth it? How long will you wait? How long will you take all those painful words from me? I just don't know when I will overcome the fear of loving someone...... To me, right now, is to work and work and work...... That's my priority right now, because works make me forget my life....... Everyday, I was hoping my boss will come and tell me, "Belik, I need you to go Singapore/Thailand/Shanghai/Jakarta/Canada/US/Europe/Maldives to do something" ARGH!!!! At least when I leave the country I might feel better........ :p

Thank God It's Friday!

Every minutes is passing very slowly. Looking forward to go back home and sleep today. It's so boring today...... :( Anyway, I've make out some posibilities of who Anon#2 is......... Someone from friendster.....someone who stays in PJ....... someone whom I have never meet before...... someone whom refreshing my blog now and then...... LOL. That's a good start.

Some people might say I don't know how to appreciate what I going on around me right now. Some people might say, just becareful of what is going around me now. Some may even say, give yourself more time to heal and then only think about it. I would say, I want to be alone and think about it. Think of which one to choose..... Think of what will happen if I choose that....... Think of the consequences......

Have you ever feel that you are being loved and cared crazy-ly? Someone who likes you so much until they want to be with you every single day and night. I don't know about myself, but I felt scared. I felt like I'm being pushed to a corner and I got no where to run. I felt like I'm struggling for space and air. Sighs..... So hard to tell la.....

Will you compare?

If you have a bf........ will you compare what he has done for his ex-gf and what he has done for you? Or better still, what he has given to the ex-gf and also to you? OK. Maybe you will you won't because it's a small item but what if it's a car? What if your bf bought a car for his ex-gf and he did not even buy you a bicycle for you? Would you compare that he loves her more that he love you? How about diamond ring? How about a holiday package to somewhere? Will you compare that? I wish I could get some comment from the girls here and also from the guys. Will you guys compare what she has done for her ex-bf with you?