How many times?

Forgiveness...... How many times can you forgive someone who hurts you or lie to you or cheat you? When you start to forgive, that's when you heal? Is that true? How can you forgive someone who has betray you? I get alot of comments says, time will heal.... time will heal.... time will heal........ When is that time? How long more do I have to wait? What's more do I need to do to be healed? Until I found someone who really love me and willing to sacrifice anything for me? Love maybe, but sacrifice for me, hmmmm...... is it worth it?

She said she is willing to wait for me, and take all my cruel attitude towards her....... but is it worth it? How long will you wait? How long will you take all those painful words from me? I just don't know when I will overcome the fear of loving someone...... To me, right now, is to work and work and work...... That's my priority right now, because works make me forget my life....... Everyday, I was hoping my boss will come and tell me, "Belik, I need you to go Singapore/Thailand/Shanghai/Jakarta/Canada/US/Europe/Maldives to do something" ARGH!!!! At least when I leave the country I might feel better........ :p