Will you compare?

If you have a bf........ will you compare what he has done for his ex-gf and what he has done for you? Or better still, what he has given to the ex-gf and also to you? OK. Maybe you will you won't because it's a small item but what if it's a car? What if your bf bought a car for his ex-gf and he did not even buy you a bicycle for you? Would you compare that he loves her more that he love you? How about diamond ring? How about a holiday package to somewhere? Will you compare that? I wish I could get some comment from the girls here and also from the guys. Will you guys compare what she has done for her ex-bf with you?

Who is more ego?

Man or women? Which one more ego? Same? Hard to say? Not definite answer? Is it hard to say you are sorry? Is it hard to say you miss someone? Is it hard to say that you want to meet that person? Sighs......

Why is there ego exist in the first place? Why must there be ego in between a couple/lover after being together for some time? What is ego?

It's Going To Be Long Day

Came back last night at 4am from a pool club in Sunway. Tried to wake up at 6am....... but because being too tired...... I laze on the bed till 7am....... Thinking that I have a meeting this morning, I was very reluctant to wake up but I had too...... Sigh.....

On my way to work this morning..... I almost killed someone on the road....... Well, what happened was, the road nearby my office that going towards KL (I'm going the opposite way). You know those motorcyclist like to ride in the middle of the road and squeezing thru the traffics? Yeah.... just like in the TV advertisement. This motorcyclist was riding in the middle of the road and there was this car coming out of the junction. Both can't see each other coming because there was a traffice jam at that time. BANG! And I was coming from the opposite side and I saw it right infront of my eyes. Seeing that, I slam on my break and tried to stop but the road was wet (It was a wet morning) and my car is still skidding forward. The motorbike was flung to my side of the road (there were 2 lanes on my side and I was in the second lane) and the rider was rolling on the road on the other lane. I knew I will not stop in time, so it's either I hit straight to the bike or I sway to the right and hit the rider or to the left and goes into the drain. Well, ofcourse I choose the bike. LOL. Bloody hell. Just nice when my car touch the bike, my car stops. Phew...... Pulled over to the side of the road and check on my car.... DAMN! A crack on my number plate! Then I check on the rider and he was limping towards the drain side and sit's there....... Serve him right! Let him alive to remember it! Since it's not my problem I continue drive to office and enjoy my nasi lemak nearby my office acting like nothing happened........

To Anon#2

Such a sleepy and slow day. Been cracking my head since this afternoon wondering who is Anon#2. LOL. Anyway, thanks for dropping by to my humble blog. LOL. I'm still wondering do I know you in person?

When I was taking bath this morning (Don't peep huh!) and suddenly this alphabet "W" comes into my mind. Hahahahaha..... Don't know why. I was thinking how did that "W" comes about. Then when you pronounce it, you will realise that it comes from the alphabet "U". When you combines 2 "U" together you will get "W" and the pronouciation for it is "Double U". Hahahahahaha..... Am I correct?

When you are in a relationship, you will think that you know your partner very well. How do you know that you know that person as well as what you think? You may know him/her about what he/she does when you see it. But how do you know when he/she does something that you will never be able to see it? Can you really tell how a person is feeling right now by just looking at his/her face? You really tell what he/she is thinking by just staring at their eyes?

As for me, I'm a kind of person who will keep my mouth shut when someone does something that I don't like. I know it's not good, but my principle is to avoid arguements. But ofcourse, when you are angry at someone, your face could not hide it for long. I would show my long face and just keep quiet even thou someone tries to ask me what is wrong. Alot of girls will get me wrong when they see me like this, they would think I don't love them anymore la.... I hate them la... and whatever shits la..... but will they think what they have done wrong and make me so piss off with them? Will you girls out there think what have you done wrong? OK. So when I spit it out, they would say, "Ahhhhh! It's all your fault, you always show me the long face and I don't like it so I do it more la" WTF!!!!

So do you think you know your spouse or lover very well? Oh, by the way, I'm a scorpion and my signs really describe myself very truely.

Materialistic

LOL. I didn't thought my previous blog will cause such controvesial with all those comments. And I was laughing at myself when I was being called Belik. Anyone has any idea what Belik stands for? For a hint, it's a native word in Sarawak or maybe some in Sabah. Anyway, since we are talking about this topic, there's a story I want to share with you and maybe you could give a comment or two. It was a true story that I read from somewhere.

There was this girl, who has a bf. (yeah, yeah.... same old story) LOL. Read on first. One day, there is this another guy asked her out and said he has something to show her, while she was at work. Since she got no other time to go out with this guy because she has a bf so she decided to lie to her boss that she need to go somewhere and pick up some stuff during lunch time. So the guy brought her out to somewhere in the city and they went to this huge mall with 2 tall building. (You figure out where la) They went to a watch shop and this guy went to the lady in the shop and talk to her something while she was looking around in the shop. Minutes later, this guy told the lady that he wanted to buy a watch there. And it's a limited edition watch which cost RM34K. He reach down to his pocket while this girl who he went out with is watching what he is doing. He took out a bunch of cash and paid the watch with it. Upon seeing the cash this girl was like going nuts and surpised that he actually bought the watch with cash. Ofcourse, when he turn around to look at her, she might look somewhere else and act nothing happen and continue looking at some watch in the shop. After making the payment, he approach her and ask her, "Do you want anything?" "Ermmm... you buying for me?" she said jokingly. "No problem" replied the guy. Thinking that this is the first time they go out, it's not nice to ask anything from a guy, so she replied "Maybe you could get me one of those for Christmas present!" The moment she reach back to home, she tells everyone how cool is that guy to whisk out a bunch of cash to buy that watch. End.

So what did that guy showed to her? SHOWING OFF his money! And the girl? Materialistic? To me, what I see is that, the guy is just trying to impress her with his thick wallet/pocket. After 2 days he might have return the watch to the shop!!!! Hahahahaha..... Those kindda shop has money back guarantee you know. Especially if you purchase it with cash.

So what do you think of this story eh? It sounds like those stupid blonde bimbo story. HAHAHAHA!

A Real Wake Up

This morning was not a very pleasant start of day for me. Imagine when we see each other every time and we argue. It's like the moment we open out eyes and we argue. Sighs. Both's ego are as high as Himalaya Mountain. How to compromise? It's best to split up I guess. No point going on seeing each other.

So today we split our stuff. She took her stuff and I took back mine. Things that she never appreciated. Things that she think is not enough for her. Once she said, love is not everything in a relationship....... material things comes together in the package. Oh boy. I don't know about you girls who is reading this but do think that is true? Do you think that we, the guy, have to give you material things to show you how much we love you? How about the unseen things? Time? Care? Holdings your hands while crossing the road? When you in need of help, we were there for you and help you? Going thru your pain together? Financially support you when you were hungering for the month end pay check?

Yes, it's true, sometime somethings there we give and take as well. But what is the percentage? Well, I've seen alot of girls going thru a process of "EVOLUTION". When they were studying or they got no source of income, and SO happen they found a working boyfriend. She'll stick by him because she feels secured together with him. Then this guy will feel secured and happy too because he knows she feels that way, so this guy will shower her with love and gifts and sometime money. After a few years pass by and this guy will have to somehow reduce those expensive shower because the courting period is over and it's time to think of their future together. So this girl will feels that the shower is getting lesser and lesser each passing years...... Because of she so used of getting a heavy shower, she got uneasy and feels that his shower does keep up to her standard but she still stays on. Till the year she starts working, meeting people out there. So this is where she knows how to shower herself, but being just out in the industry, her shower might be still small and still not enough for her, so still sticks by his shower. After a year or so, her shower got bigger and she feels that his shower does not makes a different to what she has right now..... And that's where she will walk out of the shower of his with her own shower and look for WATERFALL! How about that? The guy being the shower all time has no chance to be a waterfall because of constant showering her........ Is that what a relationship all about? Where is the grateful feelings? Where is the appreciation? Where is the love? Love for the shower and waterfall? Or the guy just being stupid?

ARGH!!!!! I don't know what I'm writing also. Try to understand it if you can....... Crap!!!

What should I do?

I don't know what I'm thinking. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do. It seems it's hard for me to remember what love is anymore. How does love feels like? I'm numb. It's like my door to my heart is being shut tight. I want to open up but it seems that door is shut too tight and I can't open it.

After the last relationship, I felt that it's very hard for me to trust someone. I felt myself very fragile and I may break down anytime soon. It's not that I don't want to give anyone a chance, it's just that I need more time to heal I guess. I felt so miserable for the past 2 weeks. I don't know how to confess my feelings even thou someone confessed it to me their feelings. It's hard for me. I felt so insecure. It's not fair to me and also to anyone. I had to reject the love and I know I might regret it soon or later, but what I know, it's not the right time at the moment.

At the moment, I could see that I'm a damn evil person. I would say I don't miss you. I would also say, I don't want to see you anymore. I would say I have never wanted to care about you. I would say please leave me alone and forget about me. Yeap. That's me right now. Maybe I still afraid of being in love. Maybe I just need more time. Maybe........

A Night With Music

Went out with a group of my friends to karaoke last night at 1 Utama. My first time there. Had a blast there with all of them. And most of it, all of them are girls! LOL. It was fun. Sing till my throat swell........ The package was a good deal I would say. RM44 plus plus for a person, and they included buffet dinner with oyster, sushi, muscle, and some other seafoods and asian foods. It was worth it. We even smuggled a bottle of Jim Bean in there. Hahahahaha....

Been busying upgrading my computer OS today. Yeap. It's Vista. Found that it's not really user friendly as Windows XP. But, what the hell, already formated my old system, so have to keep this Vista. There's alot of software that does not compatible with it. Crap! Have to search for the ones that are compatible to it. ARGHHH!!!

SIN - KL

Back at home at last.... Enough of travelling for the time being..... I hope... Reached at 1 U at 11.15pm..... waited for a cab but none..... Hmmmm.... waited another 15 mins... Arghhh.... WTH! Grab my bags and dragged myself to walk home..... Well, for the first 30 mins walk it was a nice and peaceful walk...... Then for the next 30 mins I was dying for an empty cab to pass by me.... Kept walking till left about 500m to my home, an empty cab pass by me!!!! *&^%$@!!!!

Stop by 7-11 and bought 2 bottles of Coke for my supply at home. Someone seem to stole my Coke from home during my trip at Turkey. Upon reach home, I'm expecting an email from a friend of mine.... Turned on the computer before even turing on the lights! LOL! Now cooling down myself before I take my bath.

Last night my friend called me up and scolded me that I forgotten his birthday...... Errrmmmm... My response to him " Are you a girl?" Hahahahahaha..... Got more scolding from him then..... Anyway, Happy Belated Birthday Wing Fatt!! Ohhh.... guess what? My birthday coming soon........ Hmmmm.... Anyone knows when? LOL. Make sure you ask me if you don't know so that you won't forget my present too..... LOL. Just kidding la.... I think my this year's birthday I want to do a big blast party..... Anyone want to join? Hehehehe....Why big u ask? Well.... it's my full one year of my 3rd decade in this life! Phew.... time flies eh? OK la.. gotta go take bath and then have my coke+black label=sleep.....! Unpacking? Nahh... tomorrow la....

By the window in Singapore

Sitting by the window overlook the street in Singapore and a couple of other hotels across the street, this is where I am right now and typing this blog. Just got back dinner with my colleagues in Singapore and back to hotel. Tried to catch some movie on the 32' LCD TV but nothing interest me....... Then slowly my brains suddenly became active and alot of stuff running thru my mind....... STOP!!!!!! WHAT AM I DOING HERE!!!!???? Stop thinking!!!!!

Grab my laptop and turned it on........ Adjust my laptop to find a strong signal for the free wi-fi here.... And found a spot just by the window.... And here I am..... Blogging...... LOL.... Dang! I have to stay awake to wait for my boss to arrive at 11pm later.... He will be sharing my room tonight because he wanted to take over my room when I leave tomorrow. Errrr..... There's 2 single bed in the room...... So nothing between me and him... Hahahaha.... Damn.... I can't stop thinking.....

Want to know what I'm thinking right now? Well, I've been thinking about my ex-gf right now....... Yeah...... I think this is what happen when you are alone and got nothing to do...... ARGHHH!!!!!! Keep blogging MICHAEL!!! Focus!!!!! Listen to Chris Daughtry!!!